Becoming.

Yes, this is a kid’s story. I get it, I’m drawing my own meaning from this on a very tenuous thread. But in a conversation I just finished about why I’m putting myself through all this pain in order to learn about and change myself, becoming is the only reason I can come up with. […]

I saw this online today and it really made me think. Many of these things are applicable to me, and I’ve thought for a long time about past lives and the plausibility of them. Just wanted to throw down some thoughts on the matter while they’re fresh on my mind. 1. I have recurring dreams […]

Well hello again.

It’s weird… I get really into writing for awhile then for some reason or another it falls to the wayside. Alas, I am back and here to update all two people who still follow me! πŸ˜‹ A LOT has changed in the last few weeks. I ended a long friendship that it took me years […]

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It’s been a little while since I’ve posted, but life happens. I started working a shitty job (that I just quit lol) and got kinda sidetracked from the gym and properly caring for myself. Now that I’ve got free time again, and thankfully an incredible boyfriend who is taking care of me through all this, […]

Non-scale changes.

-saggy thigh skin -belly button rash from tummy folding -moving without hurting -bracelets falling down my arms -feeling bones when I touch my body -being uncomfortable in bed because bones -a bra I’ve had for literally 5yrs that never fit is now slightly too big -ordering clothes not knowing my size and sending them back […]

How do you know?

How do you know when you've made the right decision? About anything, really? When you're given two perfectly acceptable options, how do you know which is the right one to choose? I feel like I'll always wonder what would have happened had I chosen the other path. What my life would have looked like, who […]

One year later.

Today, August 1, 2017, marks one year since I made the decision to pursue gastric bypass surgery. I had been suffering from a pinched nerve in my hip that would make my entire upper leg numb at times, and often prevented me from walking and standing for more than just a couple of minutes. I […]